hey helo..

i know i've not been posting any for the last 1 mnth.the reason for that...is im lazy. school had long started but its not the reson why i didnt blog coz i do have quite alot of free time.heh. so far school's fine.
however this whole month juz sux when tat someone is damn busy ah..as day goes on im just getting more and more fed up will all tats going on. 1 month ago i kept thinking bout when to ask her that qn. but now, i can even put my mind to think bout it. i'm surprise that i could survive all this up till now. i just dont knw when all this will end, but im afraid that one day i cant hold on an bear all this much longer.i hope that day won't come any sooner. i don't want all this to make me used to not having her around..then that will just lead to i wont need her anymore. i still do need her, but im used to not having her around anymore. i know im being unreasonable coz, nobody ask for this to happen.not me, not her..but i reali didnt expect tat it will be this way. it sux uh. i cant leave coz i still love her.. but i cant stay forever either. i know im just being a burden to her by acting like this. but, i think its time to think bout me too..well,at this mommentt she's at the lib, studying or doing her project i think. so yea, need to wait till she's done then i can text her.this is how evrything goes rite now..when she's at school, had to wait till she's free.when she's at home, had to wait till she's done doing her project.and on her working days, well it kinda obvious. im making myself busy for the last few weeks so i wont be thinking bout this so much..it kinda helps a little.hmm... maybe i should reali2 get used to this.thats the least i can do to help her in her most stressful times.. well, good things happen when you wait right? it happened to me once, lets see it happen again. (: